10:24 PM 4/15/03

sigh, tight accepella, listening to it now, i just feel we'll never quite get there, perhaps itz just the studio and the computers. But then again, none of our voices is like particularly talented, and together we can sound good occasionally, but never spectacular. All of this has really brought me back to a question that has bugged me for a long time, is singin the important part? if it isn't, then what is? How much is trying TOO much? Kelvin really knocked it over the head, it isn't us doin the convicting, it isn't us doin the moving, it's you. We're just here to say the words, to spread them, it's your job to work those words within them. That gets me thinking, what are christian artists for then? to make good music, to spread the word, or both? I have a feeling itz a VERY fine line between spreading the word, and showing off. I just want to sound good, have people listen to us, and perhaps be moved by what we do.....but i guess that's kinda a wrong idea i've had all this time. If we believe in the words, really seek after your heart as we go about this ministry (and it really should be a ministry), then i truly believe you'll make us shine. That obviously doesn't mean that we'll do nothing and just pop up there and beltch out stuff, but the focus i think shouldn't be to sound good to people, but to sound good to you. Have a good message, fit into the theme, keep it plain and simple. I think we really need to get back to that......none of that showy choreo crap i've been imagining, just something that strikes OUR hearts, and if it strikes our hearts, i think it would touch theirs too. That's why i really wanna try to work on a few worship songs, kinda taking them outta that style, and fitting it to ours. People shouldn't be moved by our harmony, but rather by the words and our emotion. I always thought that we needed to sound good so people will listen to us, but i think you've shown me this year that it isn't like that, people will listen if you mean it, whether it sounds angelic or horrible (although i have to admit i don't wanna sound horrible, but that's simply a pride thing). With that all said, i think this year i definitely want to focus more than the sound, more towards the lyrics, and the feeling, perhaps towards simpler songs (THAT will certainly be a change of direction, all this time we've been working towards tighter harmonies). Still dunno what will happen after this summer, I'd imagine that largely depends on what happens this summer, and towards what the guys think of what was said above (i'd imagine they'd agree, but whether that will reflect in the mentality/actions is hard to tell, cuz it took me a while to get my head around those). I just pray that you'll give us the heart to make this your work, that we won't be relying on you just to make us sound good, that we'll be relying on you to work through us, not just in us.