11:32 PM 4/29/03

ah, been a while since i wrote........been back home for a while now, just sitting around, resting up, having fun, waiting for marks........don't know if i want to see some of those. I'd just want to thank you again for this year, and for the successful end of exams, how successful i was IN the exams is another story. Just thanks for everything, a wrap to a good year......now onto a job.......GIVE ME ONE PLEASE, gosh, i'd really hope to work, on something, NEthing, cuz heck itz boring doin nothing for 4 months......i wonder how calc will go, CURVE CURVE CURVE......just looking forward to next year, in various ways......school, eventhough i think it'd be like crazy hard, is beginning to sound like fun......challenging me to new levels, and i kinda welcome that i think, i'm not a person whos like to do easy things OVER and over again, although i do have to admit i'm very scared of failure, cuz i don't think i experience that enough times to get used to it.... i'd imagine it wouldn't be hard to kick me into despair..... Jessie is kinda rite, i get worried real easy, and i'm very prone to overanalysing, and overthinking situations....... too much extrapolating..... and i definitly can't read people as much as i think i can. The MCAC uni fellowship, definitely worth goin to see how this will go, have to admit i'm a little skeptical as to how open these people will be to eachother, and i think that's probably the most important thing, to drop the masks of any sort, and just share our lives w/ eachother. I'm however, looking forward to contributing, to practice being kind, friendly, and open...... itz like CCF first day over again, only now w/ more intimidating people... but we'll see. I just want to pray for the commitee at this fellowship, just to pray that they can lead us, in this somewhat unusual circumstance, to really reel in some of the more lost uni students at this church..... and for myself, that i'd do my best to improve it, even though i'm not in a leadership position. Thanks Lord.....for everything this year, you've been great.