4:06 PM 4/8/03

How much you put into fellowship is how much you get out of it......i've been doin a little thinking, is that really true? Certainly there's a lot to be had just being at fellowship, otherwise i wouldn't have been there all these years. But how much of what you get from fellowship by just sitting there is worth while? THe socializing, the fun, the chats, the relationships that you build, a lot of that is important to me, but how important should they really be compared to what i can get from really being involved, really taking ownership of a fellowship? and should we really have a mentality at all that we need to get something from fellowship in order for us to attend?.....i dunno, just full of questions today......questions with no answers, as of yet, worthwhile to think about them though. To me, fellowshipping is just something christians do, just like if you're not called to any particular church you don't stop goin to church all together, you just pick one and go. And when God decides to move you else where, that's his choice. So to me it is really odd that josh expressed that kind of opinion, to not goto fellowship at all because he wasn't called to one. But i'm glad he decide to come to CCF (or so he says, for now) for a year, i just hope and pray that he isn't just coming to full fill the requirement to be able to lead a small group......but i'll let you be the judge of that. School is over, and along w/ is, so is first year. quick quick quick......blue skys of september is now back, only now it's april.....at this rate if i blink i'd graduate. Goin to miss shaun, all of the seniors here, the amazing thing about them, is that they ALWAYS see you eye to eye, no ifs or buts. I kinda wished i had a shot at tasting Jill's cooking, since people talk about it so much. Kinda weird that i still remember Chang, eventhough the only times i saw her was at the VERY beginning of the year, and the VERY end. Next year is goin to be interesting, dunno if Joanna will ever talk to me again......but i guess i was kinda a jerk a lot of times, so she kinda has a right to.....gotta work on that (even if josh was just making that up, i think that part of my personality has always needed work on). Pray for everyone, exams aren't fun, so i pray that everyone is given a fair chance to show their best.....I'm goin to be clingin to you for life so don't let me fall plz